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Personal reflections. Practical guidance. Psycho-spiritual inquiry.
These are my honest accounts — of what this work asks of us, what it offers, and what it takes to live it beyond the ceremony. Some pieces are practical. Others are raw and personal. All of them come from direct experience, not theory.
Posts are available in both English and German. Browse by category, or simply start with what catches your eye.
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Coming Home to Self - only possible when I acknowledge that „I´m nature“
Remembering that we are nature and not separated are common experiences Wisdom which openes up through plant medicine is part of you and part of nature....
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11 min read


The Journey of deep Healing & Learning - a personal anecdote
I want to remind and invite every person out there who is on the path of deeper healing or learning healing modalities. Especially, I can speak to women because I'm a woman. But I would also be very interested in how men experience this. So if anything resonates while you're listening or reading this, please feel free to send me an email and share your own experience. I know this from myself. And I think I know this from every woman I have met who has gone deeper into healing
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8 min read


Exploring Sacred Words & Coding for Healing
Nothing that is real can be threatened. I used to get deeply triggered whenever a DJ or musician used ancient, sacred words or codes—words that have been used for generations to communicate with the Universe, with Spirit, and for deep healing. These are sacred sounds and expressions that have traditionally been used to move energy in profound ways for healing and learning. Whenever I heard them in DJ sets, concerts, or songs, I felt upset. Living here in the Sacred Valley, su
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3 min read


The Sea my Medicine
I don’t know how I was able to endure it for sooo long without taking a complete break at the sea just for myself. In the past years, I have been at the sea – but not for a break for myself. I hosted a retreat by the sea. I was in Sama (Dieta) by the sea. I sometimes spent a few hours at the sea when I was visiting my parents. None of that replaces my Ute-time at the beach. A sandy beach, me, warm weather and my free flow, in which I can move 80% purely by my feeling, self-de
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4 min read


Meine Medizin heißt MEER
Ich weiß nicht, wie ich es sooo lange aushalten konnte, ohne mir eine komplette Auszeit am Meer zu nehmen. Ich war in den letzten Jahren am Meer – jedoch nicht für eine Auszeit für mich. Ich hatte ein Retreat am Meer veranstaltet. Ich war in Sama (Dieta) am Meer. Ich war manchmal ein paar Stunden am Meer, wenn ich Zeit mit meinen Eltern verbrachte. All das ersetzt auf gar keinen Fall meine Ute-Auszeit am Strand. Ein Sandstrand, ich, warmes Wetter und mein freier Flow, in dem
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3 min read


From a rock in Thailand to the heart of the Amazon
In 2014, during a meditation on a big rock in front of my hut on a Thai island, I received a vision:
“You will work with Ayahuasca in the Peruvian jungle.”
I had never thought of Peru. I’d never tried Ayahuasca. And I had no money. But I prayed:
“If this is real—show me the way – please let me make money in nature.”
A few days later, I was offered a job in nature.
By January 2015, I found myself in the Amazon, beginning my journey with the Shipibo healers.
Ute
4 min read


An Invitation: From a secret notebook to sacred ceremonies. A Story of Curiosity, Consciousness & Connection
As a child, I secretly collected information about substances that altered consciousness—curious, fascinated, and somehow already connected to something deeper. In the age of 14 I started to experiment on a regular base with different psychedelic substances.
With 33 in 2015, that curiosity led me to the Amazon, to the Shipibo healers, and to a path of deep learning, healing, and guiding others.
Since 2018, I offer spaces for exploration, integration, and realignment.
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4 min read


Honoring the Elders of this Healers
Shipibo Elders and the ancient wisdom they are carrying.
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3 min read


Unraveling the Power of Ayahuasca: How It Can Benefit Your Healing Journey
Why do some people drink ayahuasca? There are great advantages of infinite values when we choose to learn and heal with this powerful...
Ute
4 min read


Heilwege mit Ayahuasca und Baummedizin
Warum trinken manche Leute Ayahuasca? Einer der großen Vorteile und unendlichen Werte ist, das man mit der Zeit lernen kann was wirklich...
Ute
4 min read


"The more we die the more we live. The more we live the more we die."
How often to you choose to live fully? How often did you "die" and evolved with more alignement, power and wisdom?
Ute
4 min read


The silence beyond the noise
Be anchored in stillness. The silence, the zero zone behind all the noise. It is omnipresent. This fields are always present, if we...
Ute
3 min read


Die Ruhe hinter all dem Lärm
In Ruhe geankert sein. Die Stille, die Zero Zone hinter all dem Lärm.Sie ist allgegenwärtig. Es gibt diese.Es liegt in der Mystik des...
Ute
2 min read


Spiritual arrogance? A shadow on the path of spiritual learning?
Spiritual arrogance...is this a natural stage for anyone who chooses a spiritual path as a fulltime job for a while? Recently I have met...
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4 min read


Spirituelle Arroganz - ein Schatten im spirituellen Lernen
Spirituelle Arroganz.... ist das eine natürliche Etappe für jeden, der sich für einen spirituellen Weg entscheidet? Kürzlich ist mir bei...
Ute
4 min read


From Diet Space to Diet Space: What is in the way to receive "spirit" ? Compassionate Psycho - Spiritual Inquiry for your Master Plant Diet / Sama
I recorded this video for you when I was in my last retreat next to the ocean.... More videos to inquiry during your diet you will find...
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1 min read


A personal story about numbing emotions & learning to feel...
The distraction of "feeling the own core" can play out in many ways. What is your distraction not feel what is deeply inside of you?...
Ute
7 min read


Let´s digest our pain and move toward wholeness together!
Here is a little bit of my journey over the last about, 2 years. It feels vulnerable and I feel ready to share these parts of me. My...
Ute
8 min read


Healing with different Medicines
Mostly I write about Shipibo Medicine, the plants, the Ikaro, the tobacco and the Rao Inti perfume. The processes that are triggered, the...
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10 min read
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