The Sea my Medicine

I don’t know how I was able to endure it for sooo long without taking a complete break at the sea just for myself.

In the past years, I have been at the sea – but not for a break for myself. I hosted a retreat by the sea. I was in Sama (Dieta) by the sea. I sometimes spent a few hours at the sea when I was visiting my parents.

None of that replaces my Ute-time at the beach.

A sandy beach, me, warm weather and my free flow, in which I can move 80% purely by my feeling, self-determined – that is deep medicine for me.

For me, it means living directly at the beach. Seeing the ocean and being able to jump into the sea without effort, to play with the waves and simply be.

I have now been here for six days and I feel that slowly inspiration, motivation and inner space are there to simply be. It is slowly beginning. I have felt good since the first day here, yet it takes a little while until a certain feeling of letting go reaches me more deeply inside.

Ah, it is so good.

Before I moved to Peru in 2015, I used to leave with my backpack every 1.5–2 years – for at least one month or longer – and simply followed my flow. 90% of the places where I stayed longer were places directly at the sea and the beach. Even back then, that was my medicine.

When I arrived in Peru in 2015, learning with the plant medicine and starting True Journey became so important to me that I put everything else aside.

For a while I noticed that something was missing. Now I know what it is.Exactly this.

My deepest inner being needs this time at the sea, at the beach and a certain warmth. Nothing else can replace this for me in the long term. I feel myself more clearly, I perceive many things differently, and I gain a certain healthy distance from many things, which helps me to recharge and gain new perspectives.

I am super grateful that I have my online mentoring. At the moment I am working a bit reduced. Still, I have about 5–8 sessions spread throughout the week. That feels right, and at the same time I have enough time to be in my flow. It is a wonderful combination, and I feel very grateful that I can also work here on “my” island. This trip – especially the flight – also costs me quite a lot of money.

I am equally super grateful for everyone who comes to my True Journey retreats. At the moment, I have to say that I feel many interested people, for whom our offer is meant, no longer find us.

In the first years after True Journey was born, there were not many providers for Sama/plant dietas in the Shipibo tradition. In the last two years, many new retreat offers have sprung up – mostly from people who do not yet have very much experience in this field, but who know how to do business and marketing well.

I know several retreat providers who have been in this work for a long time and are going through the same experience: that it feels like the little marketing one does is no longer enough, because there are so many new retreat offers that are not better, but whose marketing is simply more professional.

At the moment I am considering what I want and can do in order to continue reaching the people who truly fit with True Journey.

Therefore, briefly mentioned here: we still have two free spots for our April Masterplant Retreat. So if you know someone, please pass the information on.

Well then, back to my island time. I am super happy and would like to give myself this every year – a break at the sea. I hope I can manage it financially in a good way.

Here on Koh Phangan, where I heard, saw and felt the call of Ayahuasca and the tree medicine, and where my journey to Peru began, so to speak, through intention and communication with the universe – here I noticed that my sung Ikaros come out very strong, clear and tender. I had a few moments where I was truly surprised at how my voice expresses itself. A really beautiful surprise – and when I noticed it, it was at the same time not surprising.

I was asked here if I would like to offer a ceremony. Honestly: I do not want to offer Ayahuasca in countries and places where it is not legal. At the same time, I am open to offering someone an energy session with everything that belongs to it – without Ayahuasca in physical form. The plants and all the channels they have opened for me are available.

So, I believe this was my letter and my “hello” for today.

It is raining right now, I have a Thai tea with oat milk and I am sitting here under the roof in front of my bungalow. Simply wonderful – the sea is in front of me.

This morning I was “playing at the beach” – with the rain, the waves, the rocks, the grains of sand … it was wonderful at the almost empty beach.

All my love,Ute 🌿